Irish model Baldwin opened up on her first pregnancy after the birth of her daughter, Holland.
The new mom previously decided she wanted to keep her pregnancy a secret from Instagram, but felt her experience was too important not to share.
Ireland Baldwin Admits She Struggled With Anxiety During Her First Pregnancy
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On Monday, which happened to mark Memorial Day in the United States, the aspiring screenwriter took to Instagram to share a candid message with his millions of social media followers.
“I didn’t take time to process all of this. I just wanted to write a message here to be a mom soon,” Ireland wrote in the post. “I know I said I wouldn’t dedicate my instagram to my pregnancy/mom content, but getting these words out is very important to me and I hope it helps someone even just a little.”
“I really struggled in my pregnancy like most of us do. It’s not just throwing up all over the place. I don’t miss it. As someone who suffers a lot from health anxiety, pregnancy turns everything into overdrive,” she explained. “Every the thoughts in my head related to hurting the baby.”
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“Injuring yourself. The blame game. I did everything wrong. Am I too caffeinated? [sic] Am I bending too hard? Is my shower too hot?” he asked. “Did I cry too much? Why am I crying again? Do my legs look swollen? Will I be a good mother?”
“I spent the last 9 months worrying about pulmonary embolism, blood clots, pre-eclampsia. I read countless pregnancy horror stories and I watched negative birth video after video until I was numb to it all,” she admits. “I’m worried I won’t make it through my delivery or something bad will happen.”
“Then everything happened so fast. When he was born, all this dissolved into nothingness. Nothing really matters until that moment,” Ireland continued. “I know we’re all different and our birth stories are different, but this is what I want to share from me.”
Ireland Reveals ‘Sad’ Things Women Tell During Their Pregnancy
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“I find it quite sad how women will go out of their way to tell me what’s going to happen to my body,” she explained. “How a baby would negatively affect my relationship. How my body would fall apart. My t*ts would sag to my knees. How I would never sleep again.”
“Then of course I would be told by a few people how I wouldn’t be able to do this without a nanny and a night nurse,” she said. “Even worse, everyone was telling me how god-awful this whole process and recovery was and how I would never recognize my body. Again, we are all different. Our bodies are different.”
“No one ‘wins.’ This is not a competition. But this is what happened to me. Almost everything that is told will happen, does not. Labor was intense, but I had worse pain. He was born,” he wrote. “My fear is gone. My heart is full. I have fallen in love again for the second time. I’ve lost a lot of sleep, but I don’t care. I could stare at it doing nothing for hours. A sense of calm surrounded me from the moment he arrived and that made me feel calm.”
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“My b**b has changed, but I finally have the Pam Anderson I’ve always wanted. Just a little more flop,” he joked. “My body creates life. Brain!! Heart. Little feet! My body is amazing. No one can tell me otherwise. You’re right, I wouldn’t see it the same. And I don’t want to. I will give birth to her 100 more times if necessary.”
“My recovery is smooth. I woke up and stood enjoying this weather and my time with my family at home,” he wrote. “I couldn’t be more grateful to my partner’s parents and my visiting mother. My partner and I have embraced this together and we make a better team than I could have imagined.”
“I never fell in love with him,” she continued, referring to her boyfriend RAC. “I saw a glimpse of his future father and it made me quite emotional. She is the luckiest girl to have him as a dad. And my heart breaks for those who don’t have a supportive and loving partner through this. I don’t know what I would do without him.”
Ireland Calls Giving Birth ‘Greatest Thing I’ve Ever Done and Will Ever Do’
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“I am very proud of my body. I am very proud of the work I did to prepare for the birth. I have prepared as much as possible,” he explained. “Without the breath work I learned, I’m not sure what I would do. Without my terrible OB**, angel doula, and nurses who comfort me, I don’t know where I would be. I guess my moral here is, you get this.
“Don’t let people tell you how it’s going to be. Life is scary and unpredictable and this process is very scary but it is the greatest thing I have ever done and will ever do. Don’t let people scare you. Take a deep breath and enjoy the pregnancy,” she wrote. “Even if you’re a constipated solar system like me. Because now that he’s out, I stare at his little feet kicking the air and remember what it felt like to feel him kicking me.”
“Knowing he is protected by my body and now he is a little person in the world,” he concluded. “It hasn’t been long at all, and I’m already wishing I could stop time.”
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